I’ve been thinking about what my 2nd blog post should be and I’ve been having the hardest time making a decision.
Should it be something inspirational, a review, a response to a current event…
All these ideas and no feeling of affirmation, until I came across a picture of Robert Williams with the caption “Thanks for contributing to my childhood #RIPRobertWilliams” and My face lit up and my heart said “This is it” So, here it goes…
Rarely am I angered or emotionally connected to events that occur in the media. The only events that have effected me in some way are: The Trayvon Martin Case, The Bring Back Our Girls Campaign, & The death of comedian Robert Williams.
I’ve been battling depression since I was 10 years old. The dreadful memories of bursting into tears in my 5th grade class for NO REASON AT ALL, to thinking of how unwanted I was and if I just took my own life there would be more air for others to breath and more water for the fishes to drink because they would not have me as a competition (yes, my 10 year old LOGIC!]. I ended up in the psychiatric ER at 13 years old & I’ve been receiving therapeutic support ever since. During elementary school, middle school, and high school I received extra attention from every adult that came in contact with me, which contributed to the reason I excelled.
Things that help[ed] me:
- Listing 3 things I am grateful for & why—-EVERY MORNING
- Praying to God & meditating on daily devotions
- Talking to people who care, understand, and are judgement free
- Reading Inspirational quotes, vlogs, and posts!
[Kid President is my favorite!]
- Last, but not least…
Caring for my natural hair
- Developing a social life
- Utilizing my bomb ass therapist & ALWAYS having a superb psychiatrist (strong African American figures)
- Having the knowledge that my life is not only for me
- Having an Almighty God by my side who knows all, sees all, forgives all, & most of all loves all.
A wise woman once told me “Go with what you know, not how you feel.” and that quote has not lead me in the wrong direction yet.
- 1800-LIFENET: A service I’ve personally utilized to get support from the trained operator and to find my current therapist.
- Samaritans 24-Hour Crisis Hotline: 212-673-3000
- Crisis Call Center: 1800-273-8255
Text “ANSWER” to 839863
- National Hopeline Network 1800-SUICIDE